"It's the devil on my cheek, the light in my eyes, and that truth on my lips that has set me apart from other women,"-Red Beckett, "The Devil's Mare".
This is a quote from one of my upcoming book releases and oh how my girly' heart relates to it now. This week for me has been memorable to say the least and yet I feel I have to take note of what actually has made it memory worthy. Just a note, a sigh, a whatever if I may. I like to think of a woman's heart as saintly and dark. I write about it, bleed for it, live it myself. I always thought all women were created the same. I have learned this is not so true. As a writer I am constantly evaluating hearts'. I am watching them, feeding them, learning from them, and yes...letting them go. As a woman this is sometimes a must. As a friend...it isn't so easy and so I ponder...
How saintly and hateful can this girl's heart be?
My Momma' is a rare and special soul. Though I have learned from her my whole life, I am just understanding that now. All the lessons' she's taught (and still teaching), all the moments she lit me on fire and held my chin high, all her words and her smiles..."A girl is only as beautiful as her heart is. A girl is only valuable when she has something to lose. Keep something for yourself. Love yourself and the rest of the world will follow suit... or they will coward in hate. Love never fails," she says. "Love never fails."
My Momma' is a Godly woman and yet, she has the smarts' of the world too. I have never understood her better or wanted her to be more clear than I do now. Sickness is a terrible and ugly thing in this life. Even the kind we can't always see. I know she is a fighter though...cause' I see that trait in me. Being a fighter is sometimes the best quality of a girl. I will never be a coward.
My little nugget- my son, was in a bad bicycle accident just a few days past. It's one of those things that teach us as mothers that we have such strong hearts. It's one of those terrifying moments that we walk away from and see to never take a minute for granted. A series of seconds that prove we are more blessed (even those that don't believe) than we can ever know. In the moment I knew he was okay, I knew that my Momma' was right and that we as women are both saintly and dark..that we as women should never coward away but always stand strong. The devil on our cheeks' might make it hard to turn them sometimes but the moments that actually mean something to us- the moments that have substance- these moments are the only ones worth remembering.
I have been away for awhile as an author and that's okay...cause' I have at last found my voice. It's got a helluva' good sound to it too. Writing is my thing, it's a real purpose and I couldn't be happier with it.
So, to having the words and the courage to find your true heart, to living each moment but only taking from the ones that truly matter, to never being the coward and learning to have a voice no matter what cheeks may turn. Happy Saturday everybody! It's nearly fall and boy do I have some surprises.
Bidder's Birdhouse has two chapters coming up and the final book to that series will be released. It's a "Hallowed Heart" kinda' life...and oh, do I know how to bite. Happy Reads!
<3, Elle Moon