2016 came in with a very drunk version of me. With close friends and my tight family, I never even counted down to the exact minute 2015 died. Which is odd, I've always counted down...always. Yet as I lay, back down, staring at my kitchen ceiling I wondered... How much of me had changed in the last year? So much of me that I felt an overwhelming feeling of being lost? Or was I for the first time, feeling like I had been found. Surrounded in a circle of happiness, I covered my face (a face I didn't even recognize sometimes) and I sighed. I thought of my mind and how the last year had taught me to think in new ways. I had become a new me and with that a new mind surfaced. I decided, laying back down on my floor and head to head with some of the best people- that I liked her. I liked the new me. Maybe it was the Crown', maybe it was the company, maybe it was just my writer's mind...but at 12 minutes after midnight, I closed my eyes and I laughed...out...loud. The sound was like soft popping banjo strings and some of the best people joined my orchestra and they, they laughed with me.
I realize now, I'm a terribly romantic soul. I feel the world through words and emotions and actions. Want to be a part of my life, show me. Want an invite inside my mind, tell me. Want to know a girl that makes you feel like you've missed out all the times you didn't know her, give me some emotion. I'm a junkie when it comes to feeling but I have to feel you right back or I become the girl you will never get to know. I'm a wild one...I belong to no one and that still stands. I am me and me is finally becoming all the things that a determined little girl set her heart on being so many moons ago.
February is coming fast and I'm going to release the soldier story. It's all mine and it's been a hell of a ride for me. I wrote this tonight cause' of the many, many messages I've gotten' lateley on my social media sites. Hope this answered your questions. Looks like you guys are wild ones too. Thanks for that, always. Now get ready to see a part of my mind very few ever have. Happy Reads er'body. <3, Elle Moon