Confession time- I do not like taking my picture. Nope. Never have. Not since I was little even. I always do this thing where I arch one eyebrow (que looking at picture now) and bare this expression of being caught naked. Why? Because I really do feel naked. Like the world can see right through my clothes. So I automatically start thinking...I think of the tiny mole thing just beside my belly button, the small scar just a few inches under my third rib (stupid appendix), those three annoying freckles on the lower part of my back, how I should smile, how I refuse to let myself relax...how I will be truly looked at! Then the worst comes to mind. I think, what if the world can see through my skin too? You know, the whole "wearing your heart on your sleeve thing" (not to mention I have this sorta' big heart- huge heart actually) and what if- what if that meant you could see inside my thoughts? Really see all the dark and pretty parts of who I am. What would you think of me then?
When the photographer behind this photo' snapped my pic', I did the brow arch thing of course but then I thought of something. Seeing someone truly, seeing the real of a person, isn't seeing freckles or moles or scars. It's not seeing your perfect smile, your perfect hair, what expression you make...seeing someone truly means looking beyond seeing them at all. It's hearing them. Talking and conversating, laughing, sharing thoughts, and exchanging stories...that's truly how you see someone. Looking at their picture doesn't show you who they are. In fact, it's not using your eyes at all! To truly see someone you must use...your...ears. Now ain't that a helluva' thing to think of?
I have been crazy stalled and crazy busy. Fall has come and with it a much promised book. Not to mention another chapter of Bidder's Birdhouse will go up next week. I also have some photo shoots to do, personal and book related. As I prepare for all this whirlwind stuff I have coming, I've decided I'm not going to loathe the camera when it points though...I'm going to arch that brow and picture the world naked instead of myself. If the world wants to see me that way...pick up one of my books and open it wide. Till' then...have happy reads and don't forget to say cheese. <3, Elle Moon